Happy 26 ? ? ?

Sooo today is like any ordinary day.. Except I am now 1 year older than I was the same time last year... Time has really flown by over the past few years... I feel like I wasted so much time on so many pointless things... Quarter of a century of my life gone.. n yet I'm still at step 1 of many things.. I've done a lot of reflecting over the past few weeks.. Mostly because I couldn't sleep.. soo I start thinking about the things that went wrong or should have been better... The whole time it was about what coulda been or why things happened.. but at the end of the day.. the most central figure of everything is that the mistakes and every decision made have been my fault.. "I" was the one who put myself in this situation.. I was the one who made those mistakes.. If there is 1 thing i learned over the past few months.. it must be that this world does not have something called "luck or fluke" when physical & mental power is able to increase your chances of success.. luck only applies to things that cannot be influenced by something.. Let's see how my 26th year of life fares.. Hopefully things turn around.. Though I will say that things don't always go up or always go down.. There is always a pause..