Try As You Might ? ? ?

When my friend said that she believes in reward for the amount of effort you put in.. I thought to myself if that was ever the case in my life.. I will say the amount of effort I put into the CFA exams and the results have been parallel.. The more I study.. The higher the chance I pass.. It has worked for 2 exams already and I hope this 3rd exam will be the same situation.. I know I did enough to pass even though I was in HK for 2 weeks before the exam.. I knew enough of the material to pass.. but I guess we'll see what the result is on Aug. 6.. Which I am quite anxious to find out for some reason.. Probably because I am always at home.. So more time to think of stuff and the more time I freak myself out about the result.. There is only 1 great scenario and 3 bad ones.. 1) Pass exam and secure a job / 2/3/4) Achieve anything other than option 1.. I don't think getting a job and failing the exam is a good scenario.. Passing the exam and not getting a job is definitely not a good scenario.. Ultimate disaster will be failing the exam and not getting a job.. The answer will come in 10 days or so.. I've waited so long already.. What more can I say?

Over the past weeks or so.. I've been constantly looking for jobs in Calgary and elsewhere (most notably HK).. I did notice HK has way more CFA-required positions than Calgary.. Maybe it is a sign that I should consider moving back.. as it is getting to a depressing point of failure when I keep applying to Calgary jobs.. All I see are accounting designation jobs with very few CFA jobs.. I know I made the wrong choice to do finance over accounting.. or take it further.. I shoulda just went into Engineering and forget about it.. The past is the past.. I can't change a thing of it.. I took the hard road in life and I suffer the consequences of it.. whether it be constantly falling behind or just pointless going by each day with no sense of direction or purpose.. Life to me is just blah... Too bad my mom doesn't understand these things.. She keeps thinking about going back to HK and all the bad that will come.. I am not saying I will go back and hit it up.. but given the opportunities there and the lack of opportunities here.. Should I really dwell pointlessly here? Being flexible will get people jobs and not being stuck with 1 narrow mindset.. I understand that.. I am not afraid to test things that I haven't done.. but life isn't just about yourself sometimes.. If I was living in a bubble.. then ya.. I guess maybe I can do whatever I want.. Unfortunately.. you can't just make decisions on how you feel.. Even though I have a long life ahead of me and I should really plan for the future.. There are many things in life that need to be considered when making a decision.. I am back at step 1 and I know it..